a clear path

As a student who study far away from friends whom we need to remind us of who we really are, with luxurious facilities, high internet connection, comfortable public transportation which make us easy to go anywhere,.. a condition where we get easily distracted.

Last Friday, after met with my supervisor and lab mates, I found my self again.. after a few day being confused. Now, once again the path becoming clear.. again. And once again, I started to continue this journey. A journey for a better purpose.. for a better future..

lovely nam-hae..

be cool

at least I am good at be cool, calm, and confident.. ^^

on a context..

every act we made, is a result of non linear considerations which take roles in our brain. we made hard choices. sometimes bitter one. nobody really understand what drives behind an individual decissions. sometimes even that very person didnt. understanding this, should result in how we respond to situations that made by people's choices. that we should really be non-judgemental about what people's choose to be or to do. there are list of facts, conditions, terms, value, that shape the choices people made in certain time and place. i think this is what we called context. seeing reality as a separate thing outside the context could result in wrong respond, misunderstanding, misinterpretation, and mistreated.

this understanding should made us more humble. that we are really dont know anything about what's going on. not everything happens for the same reason. there are a continuum of spectrum between black and white. i'd like to brought an example from the game of chess. the thumb rule of 'not loosing your queen' might be a good rule to do. but sometimes, loosing your queen, would be a brilliant thing to do, or the only thing to do.

i remember that once Covey has mentioned that empathy is an effective habit. it is a good theory, but hard to practice. i just remember a story when someone going late to his office. the first response he received from his boss is a smack on the table. but when he told his boss, that his mother died today... guess what happened to the boss..? why does the boss responded madly in the first place? something must be going on in his brain, that drives him to be judgemental and unconciously choose to be mad at his employee at the first place. the reality of the employee's deceased mother, changed that structure in the boss' brain, and unconciously choose to respond softer.

the thumb rule is, the more we understand, the easier we empathize...but i believe that it would depended so much in our level of conciousness.. to think judgementally, to think in short term, to be bear on reality and forgetting the unseen structure is easier to do. it needs the lowest energy level. we evolve this way... many of our ancestor's succesfull decissions are made quick and in short term. but we live in a different time and place, we live in a different context than our ancestor did. i think the best way to do is to adapt to this different context.

what's wrong with you, Erwin?

Tempo hari aku mendengarkan beberapa lagu-lagu lama. Satu diantaranya adalah lagu Gita Gutawa, yang judulnya Alunan sebuah lagu.

Saat mendengarkan, rasanya seperti familiar, seperti pernah mendengarkan alunan musik seperti itu sebelumnya..

Ternyata, dalam lagu "Alunan sebuah lagu", terutama pada lirik "..kumainkan sebuah lagu..." melodinya sangat mirip dengan sebuah lagu, soundtrack Andrew Lloyd Webber's Phantom of the opera, yang berjudul "wishing you were somehow here again". Aku sempat lihat film versi sutradara Joel Schumacher yang dibuat pada tahun 2004.

Satu lagi, lagunya Gita Gutawa juga.. yang judulnya "sempurna" (versi 2). Intro dan musik lagu ini sangat mirip dengan lagunya Bruce Springsteen "Philadelphia".

Coba, deh.. kalau ada waktu luang, dengar dua lagu itu.. sangat mirip..!

Kalo aku keliru, mohon maaf.

What's wrong with you Erwin Gutawa??... Why you let those things happened??..

at the end

at the end..

it's just between you and your God.

(if that's what you believe)

a price for democracy

There's a bunch of students who planned to go on field trip. They want to have an nice memory among them, just before they graduated. But, the school asked them to manage their own trip with a few amount of money, especially for their food. Teachers trying to be a democrat person.

So, a few students have an idea to have a barbeque party. They start to talk about the plan, there are so many people with so many ideas, speak and give opinion. Some students have a bit strange habit. They speak with determined-high tone, as if as they angry and they are right. Some students can't afford to hear that high tone. So, instead of give their own opinion and participate in the meeting, they give up and walk away, some said they will follow the result (but, of course with grumbling voice after the meeting finished), some canceled they plan-and don't want to go, some still trying to make things clear and still try to talk and discuss the matter with the rest of student (who haven't give up).

this what happened:

first student, "hey, what do you think about this?... 'cause some of our friend have opinion like this.."

second student, "hh.. it's too complicated. I can't make everyone happy. hh.. I just go with the rest. I don't want to be confused to think about other people. I don't like to be confused.."

third student, "why don't you just split the money, and everybody will happy"

others, "why don't teachers decide what we will do, and i think students will followed the teachers."

But, then again.. it wont be a democracy. So, not every one can afford with democracy.. they can't make a dialog, they can't stand to hear others opinion, and sometimes they are not used to say with brave heart, "ok, then.. I was wrong, I am sorry..". those words are to difficult for them.

well it's a price for democracy that you have to pay. Be brave to give and take and except the differences..

...

hahahaha... so funny..!

tidak semua orang bisa mengatasi masalah yang berat (dan menekan) kemudian bertahan sampai menemukan jalan keluar. beberapa orang tidak tahan, dan memilih untuk keluar, dan membiarkan orang lain memutuskan untuk mereka. atau, keluar dan tidak mau ambil bagian sama sekali. atau keluar, dan tidak mau membantu memutuskan, dan pada akhirnya kecewa dan menggerutu.

hal ini terjadi di semua bagian dunia..

hehe,

"I just want to help you all, friends..

Cause I care for you all, and it's better if we can go together.. just lets sit and talk with cool head, warm heart, and love to our friend. without suspicions.."

world cup - korea

this people watch the world cup at gwan-ali beach. together, support their beloved korean soccer team.
on open ceremony, still few people was there.

it's an easy remove fake tattoo.. "fighting korea".. i got it at the first day when korea win 2-0 against Greece.
this is just now, this night, at baseball stadium in Busan, near Sajikdo subway train station.

it is me, sarah, and james at the stadium together with korean people watch the match.

though they loose 4-1 against Argentina (of course!)

human

humans

with different background, religion, nation, color, belief, brain, money,..

have the same... "human behavior"-their social behavior, altruistic behavior, and other behaviors.

to give and to get..

some people

after their friends waiting for them..

then, just like that, they left their friends who waited for them earlier...

some people don't know what to choose..

whether they have to wait for their friend, or just go ahead because they feel afraid of being late.

many people have a leadership insting inside them. not few people also want's to be a leader. they thought they are right.. ^^

it's remind me of a few type of leadership.

one of those type is they are focusing on target, decided to leave few men behind with hope they will get success.

the others focusing on team work. no matter what, the team have to be together. but, in the end, sometimes they can't achieved the target 100% as they wanted to be.

it depends, on what you think about success..

many people, many heads, many brains, and many hearts...

28

it's damn hot..!

though the weather is just 28 celcius, and nothing compare to my country's weather but,..

it is really hot!!!....

I can feel the sweat dripping from my forehead, and flowing in my back..

I wish the wind comes and cools the air..

another sands...

sand festival 2010

walking pass a puddle on a street after a rainy day, i saw four little birds taking a shower. i walk through, threatening them as i did that. then suddenly, they flap their little wings and flew away..

just watch a movie the other night, the butterfly effects. the plot based on chaos theory. the movies even quote a phrase from the theory: a single flap of a butterfly wings in south america, might cause a hurricane in texas plain..

wow..

what have i done with those four birds? i might cause a thunder storm somewhere on earth...

(shivering...)

what's up doc?

"can't you see that i'm bussy right now??"

lunch hour..

I put my blue jacket, a cup of coffee late, my books and back pack on this bench. On this sunny and warm weather, it was nice to seat there, and have some lunch while doing some reading stuff.

Today, I spent my lunch time in this little park.. near my class. That red building that appeared on the picture is the building where I study Korean language. It's been 8 months, and 2,5 month left I'm studying Korean.

I think I'm going to missed this place..

idea..

an idea came..

don't try to impress everyone. just do what you think is a right thing to do. don't push your self trying to be a "good kid"..

just enjoy life the way it should be.

never regrets..

carpe diem - seize the day!

the way it seen

sometimes things become into something different with what you wanted to be.

things that you see isn't actually the same with the way it being seen.

and sometimes to reach your goal you have to make it become the way you wanted to see..

-indasius-

in perfecto..

i'm such a lousy person.

being irresponsible, make people worried..

well, i'm not a perfect person after all.

you didn't know it?

these days, i just tried my best to be a better person.

sometimes, as a normal human being, i did mistakes.

but, still i will try hard to do my best.

and please don't worry.

Herb & Wildflower Garden

belongs to..

in the middle of a fun badminton hour with friends, suddenly some one said,

"all of you... go out, please!"..

we stopped our play, and started to pay more attention.. what's going on?

one of our friend asked to that person, "why? what happened?"

then, the person said, "you can't play in this gym hall, now. cause me and my friends (school badminton club) already apply to use this facility. you have to apply first if you want to play" there was 6 people (the person and friends). But there are 6 badminton fields. i just wondering.. did they want to play it alone? I meant, one person for one field?... haha.. so ridiculous..

then, our friend said, "ok, then maybe next time we should apply first"..

but, then the person answered, "but you have to become badminton club member, than you can play badminton here.. cause this building is belong to club, or at least physical education major"..

(what the....*$#*??)

it was really crazy things to say...

those ignorant people.. tested my patient.. really.. i felt angry, disappointed, discriminated and surprised. At that time i felt that what my friends said about these people was right. They are discriminated. First, I couldn't believe that phrase, but last night.. they proved it.